Purge post

**friendly reminder- this is my place to unload in order to keep my sanity**

I am ready for this week to be over. It's been non-stop all week, plus add 4U4 and it is just too much. We and/or I did a halloween party, family halloween, IUD OB visit, MFM visit for media stuff, interview for St. Marks, got ultrasound & birth records for the TTTS foundation, birthday shopping for dad, made a cake, had a three cousin & 3 aunts birthday party at a Playplace, while still keeping everyone clean and fed sine Tuesday. Did I mention I have a cold or the flu and the boys are not sleeping well. The poo post below was the day we did all the hospital type stuff. The pillows that are on their way to the trash are still on the front porch. They fit neither into the important nor urgent quadrant (eww, did I just use a Covey-ism to justify poopy chocolate pillows on my porch? how embarrassing!!).

I went to the temple to figure out what I need to be doing to "do my best" and had two options. I feel like He picked both and to do it without begrudging it or with anxiety. So, what a week to start being calm. It's hard. I can not do my best that I am capable of given my current load. I have a hard time figuring out what percentage of my best is appropriate right now. I can't make those (my boys) who are incapable of choosing to sacrifice, sacrifice (ie: waiting to nurse, my stress level affecting my supply, just being with them versus wake, feed, burp, change, wrap, & back to bed...and that's just my boys).

We're going to Outback tonight for mommy's gift to daddy reminiscent of the days of double income, cheap rent, no kids, and Outback multiple times a month. Now to find a babysitter (a small detail I doubt Rich recalls me asking him about).

So, can you tell that my blog has recently become my little BFF? Outback was packed (2 hr wait) so we went to Tocanos and had Mt Dews and a meat-apalooza. I think the way back to my sanity is through red meat and caffeine, who knew!